[ it's not until adam takes off his shirt that he sees the look on james' face and realizes just how desperate the older man is. he really is all the way in the closet, huh? a shiver runs down his spine as those hungry eyes trail over his body and he has to bite back a soft sound of excitement.
he doesn't admit it often, but the thought of a man more powerful than him, living a cushy life, ready to pay to fulfill whatever fucked up fantasies he's got - it turns adam on to a painful degree. maybe part of it comes from his own desperation: he rarely has any extra money, and he's seriously considered seeking out a sugar daddy once or twice. his pride always gets in the way, though.
but as soon as james brought up the idea of adam performing in front of the camera, it sparked something in his brain that's grown and grown in the hours between then and now. and, as james stands, as his erection presses rough and unabashed against adam's thigh, he lets go of whatever hesitation remains in his system. ]
It's okay, [ he breathes out, shaking his head a little. ] I don't want you to stop. Except, um --
[ he glances over to where he'd left his backpack leaning against the couch, then back at james. ]
I brought --
[ deciding it'll just be easier to show rather than tell, he leans over a little awkwardly to rifle through his bag. he really didn't bring much - mostly just a change of clothes - but there's one small extra he threw in just before coming over.
leaning upright once again, he raises the item so that james can see it clearly: it's a small disposable camera, the kind you usually take to a drugstore to get the film developed. ]
I figured I should, y'know. Try out that stuff you were talking about. [ he swallows, offering the camera to james. ] You don't gotta, but like, if you want - you can take some pictures of me. Wearing... y'know.
[ james stares at the little hunk of plastic in adam's hand like he's never seen a camera before. he wonders, a touch hysterically, which one of them is more fucked up. he'd have to be stupid to agree to this. a clandestine meeting is one thing, but hard photographic evidence could ruin his life. not that he has much of one anymore. ] Oh. That's β
[ a terrible idea. but doesn't he like those? and doesn't he like dirty pictures, too? he could take his own, just like the ones in the magazines, only better. more real. ]
Yeah. I'll do it. [ he takes the camera from Adam's hand. his mouth is bone dry. he's so hard it hurts. he wonders if adam cries easily. that would make for a pretty picture. ] Take your pants off. Underwear too.
[ he'd like nothing more than to simply rip off adam's clothes and be done with it, but he checks the impulse. adam doesn't give the impression that he has the money to replace them. james vents his frustration on the costume packaging instead. inside the clear plastic is a lurid little white and red ensemble. it's clearly not a real nurse's uniform β the skirt is far too short and the neckline far too low β but it's perfect for what he has in mind. ] Hope you can squeeze into this. I bet it'll look cute on you.
[ adam hadn't given much thought to what, specifically, would be in the photos; he just assumed it was a good opportunity to see whether or not he was into the idea that james had presented him with. if he looks good, if the photos seem like they'll sell, then why not?
adam doesn't have much to lose, either.
james still sounds kind but the commanding nature of his words trigger adam's deepest instincts and he listens without hesitation, stepping back a little in order to take off the remainder of his clothing. his jeans drop easily enough, barely held up on his narrow hips, but he shows a bit of hesitation in getting his briefs off - though the tent in the front makes it clear that he's very into everything that's happening.
he sheds them as james tears the costume out of its packaging, his eyes immediately gluing themselves to the fabric that's revealed. cheap, small, clearly from a sex shop - it feels kind of disgusting, being so turned on about wearing it. that feeling just makes him want it more. ]
Thanks,
[ he says, eyes flicking momentarily to james' face before back down as he takes the costume from the other's grasp. after a moment he figures out what's supposed to go where and he tugs it on: it's more of a tight dress than a uniform. the chest fits fine but the skirt wraps tight around him, creating a very explicit scene: he absolutely cannot hide his dick completely beneath it. he tries his best nonetheless, crossing his legs a little and tugging self-consciously at the hem. ]
[ james doesn't even pretend not to stare at adam as he finishes undressing. he's never seen a strip tease like this before. there are no threatics, no forced coquettishness or false modesty, just a vulnerability that seems raw and real. he likes this far better than anything he's ever paid to see at a club. it's all he can do not to palm his cock through his jeans.
the costume doesn't quite fit adam. the effect is to turn an already-skimpy outfit into something downright pornographic. james offers no assistance as adam tries to preserve what little remains of his modesty; he just stands there with his eyes glued to the other man's dick. his remaining doubts about his ability to actually go through with this β sex with another man, that is β swiftly evaporate. ]
You look good. [ he can't manage anything more descriptive than that. he moves abruptly behind adam, effectively pinning him against the sofa. despite his obvious state of intoxication, he's steady on his feet. he's accustomed to operating under the influence. ] Too good. They really let you come to work dressed like this?
[ it's awkward at first, slipping into his role, but the feeling passes quickly β maybe because this isn't really a game. not for james. these urges aren't something he can turn off, no matter how much he might like to.
he takes a step forward, closing what little space remains between them. another half step, and he's practically rutting against adam's ass, breath hot on the back of his neck. ] It's obscene. [ he circles one arm around adam's waist, then uses his other hand to fumble with his zipper. ] Maybe someone ought to teach you a lesson.
[ the stare is intense and unrelenting, enough that adam finds himself ducking his head in embarrassment. as much as it turns him on to be ogled like that it's also a little overwhelming; very few people have ever looked at him with such pure and obvious hunger. it leaves him feeling small, like a mouse quivering in front of a tiger, completely defenseless yet unable to run away.
when james moves adam inhales sharply, his shoulders forming a tense line as the other man disappears from his line of sight. he can feel the difference in their heights still, can tell roughly where james' mouth is based on the heat of his breath against his skin. and then --
They really let you come to work dressed like this?
-- just like that, they're doing it. it doesn't take much for adam to feel exactly the way he should, like a nurse who's been cornered by some dangerous pervert.
the press of james' erection against the back of the dress draws a sharp little sound out of adam's throat, and as soon as that arm wraps around his waist he starts to struggle against the hold - not with all of his strength, but enough to show that he's trying to escape. ]
What are you doing-?
[ the movement of his body has the side effect of his ass rubbing further against james' crotch, and his chest arches outwards as he continues: ]
[ when he and mary were dating, james always tried to be a gentleman. he wanted to show her that he was nothing like those other guys β the kind who only wanted one thing, who would take what they wanted from her and move on to the next girl. he was better than that. he respected her. he loved her.
but now mary is out of sight and out of mind, and james doesn't feel like being a gentleman anymore. adam's struggling brings out something primal in him, all the more powerful for his efforts to suppress it. this is what he wants. this is what he's always wanted. as he tightens his grip around adam's waist, savoring the other man's obvious distress, he wonders why he bothered to put up a front for so long. ]
You can't get away. [ he practically croons the words in adam's ear, his nervousness long gone. after fumbling with his zipper for what feels like a small eternity, he finally manages to free his cock. he roughly shoves it between adam's thighs, hiking up his skirt to give him easier access. it's strange to feel his cock rub against another man's balls, but it's not an entirely unpleasant sensation. ]
Who do think you're fooling, anyway? I know you want this. You're asking for it, dressed like that. [ he gropes adam's cock with his free hand, then gives it a slightly hesitant pump. he's touched himself like this plenty of times, but doing it to someone else takes a bit of practice. he tries again, squeezing adam a bit harder this time. ] You sluts are all the same.
[ adam doesn't know what part of this is more fucked up: the fact that there's a guy who wants it bad enough to go this far, or the fact that adam himself is so incredibly turned on by it. he's never been in a relationship like this - never had sex like this: angry, painful, ashamed. but all those feelings mix together in his gut along with a sense of panic that doesn't feel entirely fake and adam, for better or worse, loves it. ]
Stop!
[ his voice is louder now, more shrill, that panic seeping in. james is strong despite the fact that he's drunk and adam likes that, too; likes the idea of being overpowered by him. he struggles some more, putting actual effort in now that he knows he won't simply break free, and when he feels james shove his cock against his thighs adam lets out a sharp cry of distress. ]
Stop it-!! I don't --
[ his voice cuts off as james grabs at his cock. it's clearly not meant to be pleasurable, but that in and of itself is a turn-on: being used, his body little more than a perverted sort of doll designed just to be abused. he stops trying to pull away and instead starts to squirm, pressing his thighs together in an attempt to make himself small. it has the unfortunate side effect of trapping james' dick in the cleft of adam's ass, meaning he's effectively jerking the other off even as he continues his attempts to resist. ]
Get the fuck off of me!
[ his hands move, one going to to clutch at james' wrist in an attempt to pull him off, the other reaching behind himself blindly to hit at any part of the other man he can reach. they hadn't really discussed violence like this but it feels too natural not to; besides, adam isn't exactly in a position to do any real damage. ]
[ when morning comes, james will hate himself for this. but morning is still far away, and all the things that its sober light will render ugly and grotesque look pretty damn good to him right now. for the first time in what feels like forever, he's doing exactly what he wants.
adam's struggling turns him on. it feels real, raw in a way that his and mary's lovemaking never did. he ruts shamelessly into adam's clenched thighs, roughly jerking him off as he does so. he didn't bother to slick his hand with anything, which must make the friction painful. he feels himself get harder at the thought. adam's protests help, too. ] Hush. Hold still.
[ the hand around his wrist isn't exactly unexpected β he did tell adam to fight back, after all β but the glancing blow to his shoulder draws out something buried deep within him, something low and nasty and vile.
suddenly, this isn't a game anymore. ]
I thought I fucking told you to hold still.
[ his hand finds adam's throat with unsettling ease. he doesn't even have to think about it. he squeezes. not hard enough to crush anything important, but hard enough to make his displeasure known. his other hand keeps jerking adam off β not to give pleasure, but to violate. his cock presses hard into the cleft of the other man's ass, searching for an entry. ] You're just a hole. Understand? You don't get a say in this.
[ adam's well aware of the power the dark holds over most people. someone who seems kind and innocent can quickly transform into a monster once the sun goes down. he's long past judging what those monsters do; these days, he really just cares about getting paid. so, despite the fact that what james is doing is unquestionably fucked up, he doesn't blame the man for wanting it. if anything, it's better that he asked adam to play this scenario out, rather than going after someone who truly doesn't want it.
that being said - the rough, crude way james is jerking at adam's cock makes him feel debased, the pain stronger than the pleasure it brings him. when those fingers grab his neck and go tight adam gasps, loud and panicked, taken completely by surprise. he'd been so focused on fighting to escape that he'd forgotten what james might do in response. ]
St--
[ his voice is cut off, breath wheezing in his windpipe. he quickly realizes that struggling further will make it even harder to breathe and so he settles down somewhat, but his heart is still pounding in his chest.
then he realizes where james' cock is, and what it's trying to do - and that makes a fresh wave of fear wash over adam, raw and real. his eyes widen and his entire body tenses up instinctively, thoughts rushing through his head as he tries to guess what's about to happen. is james really just going to fuck him like this? no prep, no lube? that would be crazy, right?
but he's so ashamed of being into men that he might not realize those things are necessary. maybe he's so used to his wife that he thinks it'll just work the same way, somehow. or maybe he's actually an awful, vile human being who wants to hurt adam for real. whatever the answer, it makes adam start struggling again, not caring about how hard it is to breathe. ]
[ james is drunk enough that his impulse control his long since flown out the window, along with the better part of conscience, but he retains enough presence of mind to realize that adam's panic isn't fake. he keeps rutting, but he isn't really getting anywhere, and he realizes with the jolt of frustration that this isn't going to be as simple as it looks in porn.
he pulls his cock out from between adam's clenched thighs with a grunt of discomfort, then tries to manhandle him onto the couch. he doesn't release his grip around the other man's throat. wouldn't want him getting away. ] On your back. Spread your legs.
[ there's a bottle of lube in his back pocket, purchased along with the costume. he fumbles for it, cursing under his breath. after what feels like forever, he gets the bottle open and slicks his fingers. ] It'll hurt less if you relax.
[ panic has gripped adam's body so tight that when james suddenly pulls away, he almost falls over. the hand on his throat keeps him upright, though, tight enough for him to choke audibly as his body is pushed down onto the couch. he doesn't have the presence of mind to resist, focusing instead on doing as he's told in order to avoid as much potential pain as possible.
a flash of relief crosses his face when james digs out the lube, just long enough for it to be noticeable. then, somewhat reassured, he sinks back into that panic, harnessing it more consciously now so they can continue this twisted little game of theirs. ]
I don't want to --
[ but his legs fall open anyway, as though he can't help but obey despite his scared expression. his voice comes out tight and scared, still, both hands now reaching up to grasp james' forearm, as if trying to get the man's hand off his throat. the uniform adam's wearing has ridden up considerably now, completely baring him from the hips downward, half-hard cock resting against his belly. then, lower, his hole: on full display, darker than the skin surrounding it, totally vulnerable and ripe for the taking. ]
P-please don't do this, [ he whimpers, looking into james' eyes for the first time since they started pretending. tears have started to cling to his eyelashes, his pupils wide and dark. ]
[ james is too drunk and too oblivious know how close he just came to ruining their little game, but he notices the relief on adam's face when he produces the lube. it vanishes too quickly for him to ascribe much significance to it. then that look of panic returns, and it occurs to james that adam looks very pretty when he's afraid.
he looks pretty when he does what he's told, too. james stares hungrily at his exposed cock and hole, the display made even more obscene by adam's position. james leans forward, inadvertently putting more pressure on adam's throat, and presses a lubed finger into his hole, sliding it in to the second knuckle. the heat of adam's body takes him by surprise: on the outside, he's warm, but on the inside he's almost feverish. james wants more. ]
Beg all you like. I know you want this.
[ he pushes his finger deeper inside, curling the digit upwards slightly. he always wanted to try this with mary, but he never worked up the courage to ask. it seemed degrading, to do something like that to his wife. but now he's with adam, and he has no compunctions whatsoever about degrading him. james watches the tears collect on the other man's eyelashes and wonders how to get him to cry some more. he pulls out his index finger and lightly circles adam's hole, the contact almost teasing, then tries pushing in his index and middle fingers at the same time. ] You feel good.
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he doesn't admit it often, but the thought of a man more powerful than him, living a cushy life, ready to pay to fulfill whatever fucked up fantasies he's got - it turns adam on to a painful degree. maybe part of it comes from his own desperation: he rarely has any extra money, and he's seriously considered seeking out a sugar daddy once or twice. his pride always gets in the way, though.
but as soon as james brought up the idea of adam performing in front of the camera, it sparked something in his brain that's grown and grown in the hours between then and now. and, as james stands, as his erection presses rough and unabashed against adam's thigh, he lets go of whatever hesitation remains in his system. ]
It's okay, [ he breathes out, shaking his head a little. ] I don't want you to stop. Except, um --
[ he glances over to where he'd left his backpack leaning against the couch, then back at james. ]
I brought --
[ deciding it'll just be easier to show rather than tell, he leans over a little awkwardly to rifle through his bag. he really didn't bring much - mostly just a change of clothes - but there's one small extra he threw in just before coming over.
leaning upright once again, he raises the item so that james can see it clearly: it's a small disposable camera, the kind you usually take to a drugstore to get the film developed. ]
I figured I should, y'know. Try out that stuff you were talking about. [ he swallows, offering the camera to james. ] You don't gotta, but like, if you want - you can take some pictures of me. Wearing... y'know.
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[ a terrible idea. but doesn't he like those? and doesn't he like dirty pictures, too? he could take his own, just like the ones in the magazines, only better. more real. ]
Yeah. I'll do it. [ he takes the camera from Adam's hand. his mouth is bone dry. he's so hard it hurts. he wonders if adam cries easily. that would make for a pretty picture. ] Take your pants off. Underwear too.
[ he'd like nothing more than to simply rip off adam's clothes and be done with it, but he checks the impulse. adam doesn't give the impression that he has the money to replace them. james vents his frustration on the costume packaging instead. inside the clear plastic is a lurid little white and red ensemble. it's clearly not a real nurse's uniform β the skirt is far too short and the neckline far too low β but it's perfect for what he has in mind. ] Hope you can squeeze into this. I bet it'll look cute on you.
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adam doesn't have much to lose, either.
james still sounds kind but the commanding nature of his words trigger adam's deepest instincts and he listens without hesitation, stepping back a little in order to take off the remainder of his clothing. his jeans drop easily enough, barely held up on his narrow hips, but he shows a bit of hesitation in getting his briefs off - though the tent in the front makes it clear that he's very into everything that's happening.
he sheds them as james tears the costume out of its packaging, his eyes immediately gluing themselves to the fabric that's revealed. cheap, small, clearly from a sex shop - it feels kind of disgusting, being so turned on about wearing it. that feeling just makes him want it more. ]
Thanks,
[ he says, eyes flicking momentarily to james' face before back down as he takes the costume from the other's grasp. after a moment he figures out what's supposed to go where and he tugs it on: it's more of a tight dress than a uniform. the chest fits fine but the skirt wraps tight around him, creating a very explicit scene: he absolutely cannot hide his dick completely beneath it. he tries his best nonetheless, crossing his legs a little and tugging self-consciously at the hem. ]
Is this - do I look okay?
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the costume doesn't quite fit adam. the effect is to turn an already-skimpy outfit into something downright pornographic. james offers no assistance as adam tries to preserve what little remains of his modesty; he just stands there with his eyes glued to the other man's dick. his remaining doubts about his ability to actually go through with this β sex with another man, that is β swiftly evaporate. ]
You look good. [ he can't manage anything more descriptive than that. he moves abruptly behind adam, effectively pinning him against the sofa. despite his obvious state of intoxication, he's steady on his feet. he's accustomed to operating under the influence. ] Too good. They really let you come to work dressed like this?
[ it's awkward at first, slipping into his role, but the feeling passes quickly β maybe because this isn't really a game. not for james. these urges aren't something he can turn off, no matter how much he might like to.
he takes a step forward, closing what little space remains between them. another half step, and he's practically rutting against adam's ass, breath hot on the back of his neck. ] It's obscene. [ he circles one arm around adam's waist, then uses his other hand to fumble with his zipper. ] Maybe someone ought to teach you a lesson.
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when james moves adam inhales sharply, his shoulders forming a tense line as the other man disappears from his line of sight. he can feel the difference in their heights still, can tell roughly where james' mouth is based on the heat of his breath against his skin. and then --
They really let you come to work dressed like this?
-- just like that, they're doing it. it doesn't take much for adam to feel exactly the way he should, like a nurse who's been cornered by some dangerous pervert.
the press of james' erection against the back of the dress draws a sharp little sound out of adam's throat, and as soon as that arm wraps around his waist he starts to struggle against the hold - not with all of his strength, but enough to show that he's trying to escape. ]
What are you doing-?
[ the movement of his body has the side effect of his ass rubbing further against james' crotch, and his chest arches outwards as he continues: ]
S-stop it!
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but now mary is out of sight and out of mind, and james doesn't feel like being a gentleman anymore. adam's struggling brings out something primal in him, all the more powerful for his efforts to suppress it. this is what he wants. this is what he's always wanted. as he tightens his grip around adam's waist, savoring the other man's obvious distress, he wonders why he bothered to put up a front for so long. ]
You can't get away. [ he practically croons the words in adam's ear, his nervousness long gone. after fumbling with his zipper for what feels like a small eternity, he finally manages to free his cock. he roughly shoves it between adam's thighs, hiking up his skirt to give him easier access. it's strange to feel his cock rub against another man's balls, but it's not an entirely unpleasant sensation. ]
Who do think you're fooling, anyway? I know you want this. You're asking for it, dressed like that. [ he gropes adam's cock with his free hand, then gives it a slightly hesitant pump. he's touched himself like this plenty of times, but doing it to someone else takes a bit of practice. he tries again, squeezing adam a bit harder this time. ] You sluts are all the same.
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Stop!
[ his voice is louder now, more shrill, that panic seeping in. james is strong despite the fact that he's drunk and adam likes that, too; likes the idea of being overpowered by him. he struggles some more, putting actual effort in now that he knows he won't simply break free, and when he feels james shove his cock against his thighs adam lets out a sharp cry of distress. ]
Stop it-!! I don't --
[ his voice cuts off as james grabs at his cock. it's clearly not meant to be pleasurable, but that in and of itself is a turn-on: being used, his body little more than a perverted sort of doll designed just to be abused. he stops trying to pull away and instead starts to squirm, pressing his thighs together in an attempt to make himself small. it has the unfortunate side effect of trapping james' dick in the cleft of adam's ass, meaning he's effectively jerking the other off even as he continues his attempts to resist. ]
Get the fuck off of me!
[ his hands move, one going to to clutch at james' wrist in an attempt to pull him off, the other reaching behind himself blindly to hit at any part of the other man he can reach. they hadn't really discussed violence like this but it feels too natural not to; besides, adam isn't exactly in a position to do any real damage. ]
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adam's struggling turns him on. it feels real, raw in a way that his and mary's lovemaking never did. he ruts shamelessly into adam's clenched thighs, roughly jerking him off as he does so. he didn't bother to slick his hand with anything, which must make the friction painful. he feels himself get harder at the thought. adam's protests help, too. ] Hush. Hold still.
[ the hand around his wrist isn't exactly unexpected β he did tell adam to fight back, after all β but the glancing blow to his shoulder draws out something buried deep within him, something low and nasty and vile.
suddenly, this isn't a game anymore. ]
I thought I fucking told you to hold still.
[ his hand finds adam's throat with unsettling ease. he doesn't even have to think about it. he squeezes. not hard enough to crush anything important, but hard enough to make his displeasure known. his other hand keeps jerking adam off β not to give pleasure, but to violate. his cock presses hard into the cleft of the other man's ass, searching for an entry. ] You're just a hole. Understand? You don't get a say in this.
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that being said - the rough, crude way james is jerking at adam's cock makes him feel debased, the pain stronger than the pleasure it brings him. when those fingers grab his neck and go tight adam gasps, loud and panicked, taken completely by surprise. he'd been so focused on fighting to escape that he'd forgotten what james might do in response. ]
St--
[ his voice is cut off, breath wheezing in his windpipe. he quickly realizes that struggling further will make it even harder to breathe and so he settles down somewhat, but his heart is still pounding in his chest.
then he realizes where james' cock is, and what it's trying to do - and that makes a fresh wave of fear wash over adam, raw and real. his eyes widen and his entire body tenses up instinctively, thoughts rushing through his head as he tries to guess what's about to happen. is james really just going to fuck him like this? no prep, no lube? that would be crazy, right?
but he's so ashamed of being into men that he might not realize those things are necessary. maybe he's so used to his wife that he thinks it'll just work the same way, somehow. or maybe he's actually an awful, vile human being who wants to hurt adam for real. whatever the answer, it makes adam start struggling again, not caring about how hard it is to breathe. ]
D-on't -- pl-ease -- !!
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he pulls his cock out from between adam's clenched thighs with a grunt of discomfort, then tries to manhandle him onto the couch. he doesn't release his grip around the other man's throat. wouldn't want him getting away. ] On your back. Spread your legs.
[ there's a bottle of lube in his back pocket, purchased along with the costume. he fumbles for it, cursing under his breath. after what feels like forever, he gets the bottle open and slicks his fingers. ] It'll hurt less if you relax.
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a flash of relief crosses his face when james digs out the lube, just long enough for it to be noticeable. then, somewhat reassured, he sinks back into that panic, harnessing it more consciously now so they can continue this twisted little game of theirs. ]
I don't want to --
[ but his legs fall open anyway, as though he can't help but obey despite his scared expression. his voice comes out tight and scared, still, both hands now reaching up to grasp james' forearm, as if trying to get the man's hand off his throat. the uniform adam's wearing has ridden up considerably now, completely baring him from the hips downward, half-hard cock resting against his belly. then, lower, his hole: on full display, darker than the skin surrounding it, totally vulnerable and ripe for the taking. ]
P-please don't do this, [ he whimpers, looking into james' eyes for the first time since they started pretending. tears have started to cling to his eyelashes, his pupils wide and dark. ]
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he looks pretty when he does what he's told, too. james stares hungrily at his exposed cock and hole, the display made even more obscene by adam's position. james leans forward, inadvertently putting more pressure on adam's throat, and presses a lubed finger into his hole, sliding it in to the second knuckle. the heat of adam's body takes him by surprise: on the outside, he's warm, but on the inside he's almost feverish. james wants more. ]
Beg all you like. I know you want this.
[ he pushes his finger deeper inside, curling the digit upwards slightly. he always wanted to try this with mary, but he never worked up the courage to ask. it seemed degrading, to do something like that to his wife. but now he's with adam, and he has no compunctions whatsoever about degrading him. james watches the tears collect on the other man's eyelashes and wonders how to get him to cry some more. he pulls out his index finger and lightly circles adam's hole, the contact almost teasing, then tries pushing in his index and middle fingers at the same time. ] You feel good.